REALLY?!!??!!

I went in to talk with my bishop on Sunday and we decided that I really need to get my temple reccommend so that I can take out my endowments. I am so EXCITED!!!! For those of you who are not members of my church- this is a GIANORMOUSLY AWESOME deal!!! SO.....in about a month I get to be an endowed member of my church!!! WOOHOO!!!!! I am going to go to the Salt lake City Temple because that is where my Grandma and Grandpa were married. I think that I might even ask my buddy Mark Kuzco if he will come with me and take some great pictures of me outside the temple with my true friends and my dad and hopefully my grandpa. Very cool!

Roomies and Stuff

So I am in the process of contacting other people for potential roomies. There are some CRAZY people out there!! I don't know how much more clear I can be in regards to drugs since I said "No drugs of any kind. This includes pot. This is NOT a 420 friendly house!" Pretty clear right? And yet I still get emails asking if I am ok with the occassional "toking up" During a phone call I was asked if weed was ok as long as they had a prescription.... C'mon people! Maybe the reason that they can't understand "no pot" is because they have smoked a little too much!!! Bye-bye brain cells! Freaks.
But on the bright side I did find a couple that is going to move into the master bedroom. So- that will really cut my rent down, especially if I get a fourth roomie!

As for that stuff- I am doing better. I read a quote today by Abraham Masolov that pretty much summarizes how I feel about my choices from here on out. It says "You will either step forward into growth or you will step back into safety." I feel that I am continuously moving forward in growth (with school, work, church, etc.) and some Someday I will move beyond this and get married again to a man that is willing to make sacrifices for me just as I make sacrifices for him. Someone that will comprimise and workwith me when we have disagreements. Someone that will love and respect me. Someone that will treat me as I deserve to be treated. That time is nowhere in the near future- but it will happen someday.

On a more happy note- I am going to the drive-in movies tonght to see Hancock. I am pretty excited! Last friday I saw Wanted (GREAT movie!!!) and Get Smart (Steve Carrell is a genius!). I am a pretty big Will Smith fan- so I hope he doesn't let me down!

Mowing, Trimming, and Turkeys! Oh My!

well- it has been a few days. I must say that I am doing much better. Last night was the first time that Matt came home since Thursday. I was a little nervous, but I feel like I stood up for myself and feel good about how I handled myself.



So- I have been looking for roomies like crazy!!! I just spoke to my landlord today and he is excited that I am planning on staying. So since I am tryng to "sell" my house and rooms, I did a whole lot of yard work today. I mowed the lawn, edged the lawn, trimmed the roses, bushes, and trees in front of the house. It looks SO much better! I also added fertilizer to the lawn and set up the auto sprinklers. They are now set to water every other morning at 3:30am. Now I just have to sweep the driveway and front walk and trim the side bushes. I think that I will need to use the electric hedge trimmer on those though. While I was out doing yard work I had some visitors. I took a picture just because and thought I would put it in here.


Ahh....turkeys.....gobble-gobble!

Another day....

Well, I made it another day. This morning I was doing great. Feeling confident. Knowing what I wanted and how I am going to accomplish them. I went to a church bookstore and bought a few books about making it through hard times. The first one is Starting Over Single: A Guide For Previously Married Latter-Day Saints. It was such a great book I read the whole thing in an hour and a half. It really details how to go through the grieving process, pitfalls to avoid, turing away from depression and looking for the one bright spot that is in everyday, and how to start taking control of you finances on your own. There are of course other things that it talks about, but it really helped me. I am totally set up and ready to get myself out of debt once the bank account is seperated.

I know that my friends and family have been an intergal part of my well-being. They have been so supportive and just there for an ear and a shoulder to cry on if needed. I am very greatful for all of my friends that have really stepped up and told me they care. I even got a message from a friend that I once had in high school that I hadn't talked to in years. He just messaged me to say that he noticed that I was going through a rough time and he was thinking about me. It really helps to know that although somtimes I feel incredibly lonely (especially when I am sitting in a 3-bedroom house alone) that there are lots of people out there thinking of me and hoping (and even praying) that I will sleep well, know I am loved and awake with newly refreshed hope for another day.

Thank you to all of my friends and family that have shown that they care. I appreciate it more than you could ever know.

Back from vacation!

So I am back from vacation now. Back to work and school. I had a GREAT time in Utah visiting with my Nicci. We went to go see Wall-E (which I loved!) and went to an improv theatre in Salt Lake. It was lots of fun! I forgot to break out my camera while I was there and have only one picture to show for all the relaxation that I enjoyed.

After coming home from Utah I packed up again to go camping! I love camping! This trip started out badly- with all the fires here in California our usual (and by usual I mean the only place that we have camped in the last 5 years) place was closed to house fire fighters so we had to search for a new site. Lucky for us Nikki and Seth found a very helpful forest ranger and were directed to another great site! Both of my brother-in-laws were there- Scott and Christian with their respective significant others Lexie and Stephanie. Shawn, John, Rachel, Nikki, Seth, Kuzco, and a few of Nikki's friends were there as well- so we had a pretty large group. The highlight of the camping trip was the prank we pulled on Scott and Lexie. We hung their tent in a tree- upside down- and attatched a fishing pole to it. The other great part was the "firework" show that Shwan put on for everyone! Using flashlights and sound effects for launching, booming and crackling of fireworks we enjoyed a great show!

What a great time! I got lots of rest and relaxation and am ready to return to work and school!
Back to my full time life!!! Bring it on!